Thursday, July 17, 2008

94 days since you left me. i havent been over to see you and yes im guilty. dad do you miss me? cause i do alot.

i miss how you would
1.always call me to ask what time im reaching hme.
2.call to ask me to get things done for you. (which i will sulk doing it but now tht i want to i cant anymore)
3. how you would always scold me if i dont wnat to go to church.
4. call me to go for family gatherings and make it compulsory for me.
5. how you call me and talk to me in tht ver stern voice of yours
6. how you would talk to me at ngiht abt kor kor and your probs with tht woman.
7. how sometimes you wouldtell me da ku is cookign my favourite bee hoon and ask me hme to eat.
8. how you always ask if im coming hme tht weekend and i will say no because i wnat to stay at mama's. i shld have went hme more often.
9. how you will bring me to eat my fabourite food.
10. how you enver say no to me when i ask favours from you though you always nag at me.
11. how when i request gifts from you, you would always give it to me if its withing your means.
12. when i always tell you i have no money, you would always give me what you have.
13. how sometimes you would volunteer to cook mee pok for me.
14. how you always tell me you're going genting with mama and i will whine at the fact tht you leave me alone in spore.
15. how during cny you make me go hme for reunion and then give me the best reunion dinner like how i enevr had.
16. how we would always watch variety tv shows together.
17. i rmbr the first movie you brought me to. i was very reluctant to go watch it with you. but now i mrbr, oceans 11. its a big hit in the movies now you knw dad?
18. how everytime when tht woman makes chilli you always save me some.
19. how you always save me food when you knw i love them.
20. how you aleways wait for me to go hme before you slp even if it means to wiat for me till 4 or 5 in the morning. (im so going to miss this.)
21. the time when i was hospitalized, you rush me to the hospital.
22. you came immediately to pick me up when i told you i wnat to go hme.
23. you never fail to pick me up from whenever i am even if its very far for you. especially when its super late.
24. how when i slp nxt to you, you'll always cover the blanket on me when i kick it away.
25. how when i was in secondary sch you will walk me down to the lift when im scared.
26. never fail to buy breakfast for me when i was in secondary sch.
27. make it a point to come back and have dinner with me back then.
28. try to talk to me and listen to my complains and dreams although most of the time i never achieve it.
29. i still rmbr how proud of me you were when i passed my O lvls. you were the only one.
30. how when i need you to be there for me you're always there.
31. when everyone was disappointed with me, you stood by me still.
32. no matter how angry you still believed and love me very much.
33. you always give me the best tht you have.
34. im always the first on your mind and i feel love.
35. i rmbr how you cried when you were worried sick for me when i was sent to ttsh back in my poly days.
36. you always tell me to get the right guy. how i shldnt fall right in but look after myself.
37. always tell me what's right and wrong, but i always take it for granted.
38. give me the trust any parent can give even despite the fact of me lying to you on several occassion.
39. on my 19th bday you were planning for my 20th and also my 21st.
40. you never fail to wish me happy bday right smack at 12mn.
41. during my first mission trip you were there to support me.
42. i love the smile on your face when i bought you gifts.
43. the first and the last time i gave you money when i got my pay. (now i cant anymore.)
44. the occassional hugs i always give to you. i wished i hugged you more.)
45. how you always held my hand even till recent years. i like the feeling of being secured.
46. how i always slp in your car when you drive me around.
47. you fetching me to sch especially when im late.
48. you coming to sch just to pass me money or stuffs i forgot to bring.
49. coming to mama hse to see me when i dont go hme.
50. you scolding and hanging up on me.

i can go on and on and i will enver end. i hope you see it dad. i rrly miss you. why didnt i dream of you just yet? im depending so much on the ppl around em now tht you're gone. dad, do you think of me too now tht you're up there?