Wednesday, April 30, 2008

i moved on with life. i tried so hard to not think about you. to not let your absence affect me. but its hard. everytime im alone, i will think about it. why of all time do you ahve to leave me now? why at the time when everything was going so smoothly? why at the point of time when im opening up and proving to you tht i'll be obedient? why dont you give me the chance to show it to you. to let you kwn tht i will listen to you. to do whatever you want me to.

dad. do you knw, im hired. im hired into the events company tht i told you about. im hired with a rather good pay. do you knw tht ive been telling myself how must i want to be a filial daughter? how much i want to be able to provide you with the best tht i can. just like how you have sacrificed for me when you are still around. dad. can you hear me at all? can you hear the times i spoke to you? i miss you. and i cant express how much i miss you. but i do. i rrly do. im upset at the fact tht i dont have much things around me to remind me of you. but i knw these memories tht you have left me with, holds a a special palce. and yes, i will never EVER forget how much you loved me. i love you dad.

im glad i managed to celebrate your bday with you last year. but damn i didnt celebrate christmas with you. i blame myself for the fact tht i always put others ebfore you. how i always take for granted tht you will always be around. now i regret. but its all too late. i cant turn back time anymore. i cant bring you back. i miss you dad. man i keep repeating this.

as you watch down on me, i hoep you see how i am happy with my job. how i will still continue to be the good and obedient daughter you want me to be. dad. come visit me soon okay. i have so much to tell you. so so so much. i dont care how others can laugh at my stupidity. but please, i rrly want to see you.to the greatest man, i love you very much.

your loving daughter.
jasmine.